What pain you have endured! I could offer any number of platitudes, but I hate platitudes myself and they don’t do justice to what has happened in your life. All I can say is that I know God is with you. It probably sounds empty after what you describe. It did to me, but God is there, and He loves you. Thank you for reading and for leaving this comment. Truly, your story touched me profoundly. I wish you peace.